Author Archives: Becky

Infusion-fatigue

As I work through my research data coding, I’m having to read and re-read and re-read… the BCBecky blog posts from the beginning through February 3, 2015. Some of the posts are particularly emotional, as the memories come flooding back. In others, my memory of the time is totally different. When reading about my chemotherapy experience,… Read More »

Remission society and mourning my fantasy future

Past Dinosaur Fantasy Future Prehistoric

I apologies to those who read all my blogs, as I am cross posting this. I’d love to hear answers from the various readers of my different blogs. I want to connect two ideas: the idea of remission society as described by Arthur Frank (1995), and the concept of the fantasy future that I learned while… Read More »

Overwhelmed with a huge sense of denial

screen-shot-2017-02-10-at-4-15-39-pm

As part of my PhD research, I’m reading through this blog. It is an interesting experience. I wrote the blog, but I haven’t really read it. And I certainly haven’t read through multiple months at a time, from the beginning tracing through my journey – reflecting on what I wrote versus what I now remember… Read More »

When do I get to say, I had breast cancer?

So I did it. Yesterday, on my birthday of all days, I started taking tamoxifen. This is a medication that blocks your body’s production of estrogen – which is what was feeding my cancer. It is interesting, as the information package talks about how the medication is used to treat breast cancer. It is used to… Read More »

Wild

I had started reading Wild by Cheryl Strayed shortly after I was diagnosed with cancer – just as I began chemotherapy. Unfortunately, that didn’t go over too well. Reading about her mother dieing of cancer left me with thoughts of my death and how difficult that would be on my loved ones. I was overcome… Read More »