Category Archives: (8) Mental health

A small cup of coffee

I am reminded that recovery is slow. Although I was happy to announce the end of active treatment, I still need to recover from that treatment. I was lucky in that I only had two surgeries. Many women go through this process with a lot more surgeries a lot further spread out – such that… Read More »

The end of active treatment …

Emotions flood over me in waves. Whenever I think about it, I cannot stop crying. It has been a roller coaster of a journey, and it is now officially over! What do I mean? As of Dec 17th, I’m cancer free. The double mastectomy removed the last bits of cancer from my breasts. The pathology… Read More »

Surgery – Initial impressions and day 2 drama

The first time I looked down at my new breasts (day after surgery, during the first dressing change), my first thought was that they were a little smaller than I expected. Now, I had told me surgeons that I’d be happy with about a 20% reduction in size, but somehow, I didn’t really internalize what… Read More »

Denial can be a very powerful ally at times like these!

I shall be undergoing major surgery in less than 48-hours. Just before support group on Saturday, it occurred to me that the whole idea of surgery has become normalized for me. Within the breast cancer community, we often talk about surgery as if it were a ‘normal’ occurrence. After being immersed into the community for… Read More »

New energy means renewed ability to get stressed …

My energy returns and I’m stuck with the daunting task of prioritizing all the things on my to do list – all those things that I’ve been avoiding or just plain not doing because I could not concentrate, or did not have the energy. Now I’m finding myself so crazy overwhelmed with a to do… Read More »

Swelling goes down, so Becky goes for a bike ride …

After my weekend writing spree, I haven’t been into writing so far this week. In part I’m struggling with motivation. Although I had started walking again on Sunday, I was still struggling with achy joints and swollen body parts. Now it is just plain motivation to sit in front of my computer. I’m not just… Read More »

Pathology – What it means …

I’ve gotten pretty good at interpreting what the pathology reports say, but I’m not great at what it means. Just before my oncologist walked into the room I said to Scott – “what I’m afraid of is that he will recommend more chemotherapy”. My oncologist walked into the room and said that he would be… Read More »

Pathology – What it says

On Thursday I received the first of the surgical pathology reports. I’ll get another at the end of the month after my bilateral mastectomy. This one reported on nine tissue samples that were taken on my November 19th surgery. First and foremost, my nodes remain “negative for carcinoma”. In addition, the sub-nipple biopsy also indicates… Read More »