Category Archives: (2) Navigating the healthcare system

Breasts that aren’t breasts

Over the last couple of days I’ve been reflecting on how I now have breasts that aren’t breasts. It is an odd thing really. They look like breasts. To the external toucher, they feel like breasts (or so my husband tells me). The nipples don’t react to anything, because at the moment they don’t have… Read More »

Everything yet nothing is cancer

At this stage every ache causes me to question, then dismiss cancer. My first thought is, is this cancer? Has it spread … and then my logical brain jumps in and says no, this is not cancer … so in some ways, everything feels like cancer, yet nothing feels like cancer. I did get some… Read More »

Selfies

While walking today I found myself reflecting on why I no longer take selfies when I walk. Early on, and throughout chemotherapy, I always took a selfie of me smiling while I walked along the trail. I don’t do that anymore. One reason, is that I’m in theory finished treatment. Although my body aches, I… Read More »

Debridement and a rest day

Spell checkers hate the word debride. It seems that ‘debridement of a wound’ is the correct spelling, but debride by itself is not. I also tried debreed – that too does not show up as a word. Too bad it is a real thing! After finding out that my plastic surgeon would have preferred the… Read More »

Crying and TV

I sometimes need to just cry. It has been awhile since I’ve had that feeling. It used to be that my eyes would plug up (they produce goopy oils that don’t always clear on their own) – so a cry would help that out. The cry also helps with processing feelings – it just feels… Read More »

I look good but … and real hugs

I look good but I feel like crap. Actually, mentally I feel good. I took a higher dose of drugs last night (and more melatonin) so I slept better than I’ve slept in a while. Unfortunately, I’m having another side effect – at least that is what we think it is – we think it… Read More »

And then there was one …

I was really hoping to have both my drains pulled today, but truth be told, neither had output low enough to warrant being pulled (close by not quite). I do wonder if it had more do with my mental health than anything else; when, they did remove one of the remaining abdominal drains. So, now… Read More »

A nice walk … but I’m tired …

I need to slow down a little. I was chatting with the nurse from our insurance company yesterday. She asked, ‘how much are you walking, 10, 15 minutes?’ … I’m like, 1-2 hours … it’s a bit of a different scale. In some ways, I’m far exceeding where I should be at this point. I’m… Read More »

Ups and Downs

Healing is full of ups and downs. One day you are doing really well, and then then next, not so much. Saturday I really over did it. I walked over 5km, then went to two support groups (so sitting for 4 hours). To top that off, I tried to taper my overnight pain meds …… Read More »

Recliners

Upon leaving the hospital, we were worried about how we would manage at home. It seemed that everyone I talked to, and everywhere we looked on the internet people professed at the need for an electric recliner – for both lounging but also for sleeping. We were so convinced that we tried to rent one,… Read More »