Tag Archives: cognition

Surgery – Initial impressions and day 2 drama

The first time I looked down at my new breasts (day after surgery, during the first dressing change), my first thought was that they were a little smaller than I expected. Now, I had told me surgeons that I’d be happy with about a 20% reduction in size, but somehow, I didn’t really internalize what… Read More »

Huh, what day is it?

I’ve managed to completely lose track of what day it is. I felt that Tuesday was the weekend, and then yesterday (Tuesday) I took my meds labelled Wednesday. The change in chemo day certain is part of my confusion – because my routines are all changed but still. I shouldn’t have to check my phone… Read More »

Oh where has my mind gone?

In one moment, I feel like I’m thinking clearly. I’m reading and reflecting. I feel connected. In the next moment, I realize just how unconnected my mind is. This chemo brain is infuriating! I ventured out today – unable to drive because of the cognitive dissonance that is getting worse with each dose of taxel… Read More »

Permission …

On Friday, I gave myself permission to stop working while I’m on Taxol. I have been trying to sneak in small amounts of contract work, but I just haven’t been able to get anything done. I’ve had the same task on my to do list week after week. It isn’t a big task, nor a… Read More »

Flexibility … and some good news …

One thing I can say for certain, the cancer journey is anything but predictable. I had all of these plans made based upon when my chemo dates would finish … and now things are going to get crazy again. My first appointment this morning was with radiation oncology. I saw a resident who was clearly… Read More »

One more chemo day done!

Today was a busy day up at Stanford. I had an oncology appointment, chemo infusion, and then a workshop on make-up (sponsored by Look good feel better). I’ll talk about the first two here, and the latter in a separate blog post. The good news from the oncology appointment is that the thing my oncologist felt… Read More »

Today’s side-effect – cognitive numbness

I was fine this morning. I woke up feeling pretty good, but have since experienced a cognitive decline. I did get out to run a few errands, which involved driving. I was fine when I first set out, but not doing too well by the time I got home about 90-minutes later. After my bike… Read More »

Fatigue and my muse

I was writing a comment the other day on a friends blog post, about how I blog because I have to. I have a ‘muse’ which compels me to write something. Something will happen during the day, and an idea will spark. After thinking about it a bit, I usually have some form of blog… Read More »