Tag Archives: crying

Crying and TV

I sometimes need to just cry. It has been awhile since I’ve had that feeling. It used to be that my eyes would plug up (they produce goopy oils that don’t always clear on their own) – so a cry would help that out. The cry also helps with processing feelings – it just feels… Read More »

The end of active treatment …

Emotions flood over me in waves. Whenever I think about it, I cannot stop crying. It has been a roller coaster of a journey, and it is now officially over! What do I mean? As of Dec 17th, I’m cancer free. The double mastectomy removed the last bits of cancer from my breasts. The pathology… Read More »

Surgery – Initial impressions and day 2 drama

The first time I looked down at my new breasts (day after surgery, during the first dressing change), my first thought was that they were a little smaller than I expected. Now, I had told me surgeons that I’d be happy with about a 20% reduction in size, but somehow, I didn’t really internalize what… Read More »

Pathology – What it means …

I’ve gotten pretty good at interpreting what the pathology reports say, but I’m not great at what it means. Just before my oncologist walked into the room I said to Scott – “what I’m afraid of is that he will recommend more chemotherapy”. My oncologist walked into the room and said that he would be… Read More »

Temper tantrums

Yesterday, I felt like a two year old having a temper tantrum. I don’t wanna! I screamed to myself as tears dripped down my eyes. I got a call from the surgery scheduler. They were awaiting word from my oncologist about chemo scheduling. After talking they conferred with my oncologist, I got word that the plan… Read More »

Before all the pinkwashing was Terry Fox

I found it interesting the other day, walking with new friends, that they had never heard of Terry Fox. As a Canadian, we are taught about Terry Fox’s worldwide legacy, so I somehow expected that those affected by Breast Cancer (and activists within the breast cancer community) would have at least heard of him. Terry… Read More »

My Buddha Belly

It may sound dumb but one of my biggest worries about not getting reconstruction is that I’ll look funny. I’ll have a flat chest but a buddha belly. I’m more scared about the buddha belly than I am about the flat chest. I know my choice for surgery. I know I ‘want’ a double-mastectomy. Want… Read More »