Tag Archives: Identity declaration

Transitions matter

Talking to my friend Stacey this morning, and reflecting on the BCC (Bay Area Women’s Cancer Connections) Young Women’s Group for those in treatment and post treatment, I see a need for some form of “graduation ceremony” or “bridging ceremony” . At the BCC Young Women’s group, what I noticed was a very large group,… Read More »

Moving forward

I now have a surgery date – December 17th. It isn’t exactly the date I wanted, but it is something that I can work with. With that in place, I can now start to move forward with my life. Over the last week I have started to move beyond my diagnosis. My life is becoming… Read More »

What does it mean to be a survivor? … I am a warrior!

Today I found myself seeking out definitions of cancer survivor. In my context, I don’t know what it means to be a survivor. I certainly am a cancer warrior – I’m in treatment, I am living each day – but what does it mean to survive? Some definitions involve the time after treatment, when you… Read More »

Seriousness is sinking in

I’m starting to shed my hair. I noticed at first when I use the toilet, and then again when I dried my hair after the shower – seeing enough bits of hair in the towel that I had to throw it in the wash! At Wednesday’s oncologist appointment, when I asked about surgery timing, specifying… Read More »

Negotiating identities in multiple worlds

I find myself living between two worlds – or perhaps more – negotiating my different identities. Anyone who gets breast cancer under 45 is considered to be ‘young’, so I’m re-negotating what it means to be a young cancer patient. In church, we had groups for young adults age 18-35 and I remember the very… Read More »

Joining the cancer blogosphere

I have been blogging for a few weeks now, but I have been very hesitant to read other people’s cancer blogs. I’ve been hesitant to reach out to too many others who are going through similar experiences to mine. In part, this is a form a denial, in part it is a form of fear.… Read More »

My quantified and qualified self

I started writing this post a few days ago, but never found the time to finish it. Today is a day off of doctors appointments, although I am expecting a call from the oncologist (onc) at PAMF regarding the results the tumor board there. Let me start by saying I’m a mixed-methods researcher. That is,… Read More »

The role of fate in my life

Although I don’t believe in a god per se, I do believe in some form of fate. Throughout our bicycle journey (http://goingeast.ca/blog) we often felt that something was looking out for us. When I started my PhD, I reflected on fate here. I think that fate played a role in helping me be prepared for the challenges… Read More »